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... [19 May 2004|03:19pm]
[ mood | confused ]

so once again im stuck with this feeling that
everyone around me seems like theyre getting closer and closer
while im moving farther and farther away
yet, i dont feel a need to be closer to anyone.
suddenly my life feels like a dream that i cant wake up from
and when i sleep its almost like dying and waking up again.
it almost feels like my conscious mind wont let me go into depression
but the subconscious mind is already there

p.s. whoever is leaving those "emo" comments on my friends journals... dont do it to me. ill eat your freakin face biya!

12stabs through backs| sharpen your switchblade

i could never swallow your false ideas of a lifeless happy ending [21 Apr 2004|10:17pm]
[ mood | discontent ]

well well well... an update from the infamous Ethaniel Butler.
day 1- sleep.
day 2- sleep.
day 3- i went to a play.
day 4- church.
day 5- hung out with mike.
day 6- hung out with mike.
day 7- again, hung out with mike.
day 8- went to hampton and chilled.
day 9- i was drum tech for my friend christians band- Anniversary Downfall.
day 10- beach.
two words- GAY

well im still single and yea.
dont you hate it when people are a big part of your life and then suddenly disappear?
i do.

leave a comment for me to savor!

11stabs through backs| sharpen your switchblade

... [08 Apr 2004|05:42pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Would you rather be an African elephant or an Asian elephant? Why?:African... it has a better ring to it.
Would you rather freeze to death or burn alive? Why?:burn... eventually your nerve endings burn off and you cant feel it anyway
Name three movies you like:Zoolander, Monsters Inc, Happy Gilmore
Name three books you like:To Kill A Mockingbird, The Outsiders, The Tell Tale Heart
Have you ever fallen in love with a fictional character? Which one(s)? Why?:not that i can recall.
Republican, Democrat or other? Why?:not sure.
Attendance percentage at high school dances?:68%
What television shows do you watch regularly?:I Want a Famous Face, Pimp My Ride, American Idol
Abortion is...:ok, before a certain point.
The death penalty is...:ok, if it is really deserved.
How do you take your coffee?:lots of everything.
How do you take your tea?:sweet and iced.
Who's your favorite teacher/professor?:hm...
How do you feel about your parents?:theyre pretty cool
What sort of music do you listen to?:Hardcore, Screamo, Classical.
List five or ten bands you listen to.:Atreyu, Beneath The Ashes, Blink 182, Senses Fail, Thursday, As I Lay Dying, A Fall Farewell, Madison, Everytime I Die, Bleeding Through.
Do you use public transportation?:nope.
Ever told someone you love him/her?:yes.
Morning person, night person or both?:night... mosdef.
What are your friends like?:my friends.
Amusement parks are?:fun.
Cafeterias are?:gross.
Dogs are?:a lot of things.
Any phobias, traumas or other weirdnesses?:getting hit by a car.

9stabs through backs| sharpen your switchblade

i secretly love Blink 182. [03 Apr 2004|11:05pm]
[ mood | silly ]

well on friday we had a kinda band practice then i went to the mall with matt mike and kirsten and we met up with amber. dramatic overload. long story, and i dont feel like typing it. anyways, mike spent the night. and today (saturday) i woke up took a shower and then mikes grandpa picked me and mike up then we went to guitar then we went to burger king then we went to the batting cages then we went to baseball practice. then i went home, took a shower, AAANNNDDD TTTHHHEEENNN i went to the mall and then i saw starsky and hutch.

i have fresh kicks.
ettenaejrofgnillafmi hehehe



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im running out of options [28 Mar 2004|04:13pm]
i had a pretty happening weekend...
friday- i went to the lamest battle of the bands. ha. it was cool though because i saw mass ppl there. but then it again... it was super boring.
saturday- i thought i had baseball practice but no... so i had to practice w/ varsity. boy was that tiring. then i got my hair cut... then i went to matts and we had...
it was good. because my newly aquired friend kirsten was there.
afterwards i went to the mall with mike. and the band... then i spent the night at mikes.
sunday-church with mike and i went out to eat!

ok... i need a companion. i have maybe one crush... but sigh. oh well.

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ive been talking in my sleep [24 Mar 2004|07:05pm]
my band (Versus Rome) got a new drummer. a drummer by the name of Mike Lambeth. holler.

not much has really been happening. i just got un-grounded.
congrats to Ethan.

my grandpa calls me Ethaniel Butler. hahaha... where he came up with it... iunno

i joined the baseball team for school... yea, kinda gay but its something to do.

lady-less as of the moment... :sigh: getting kinda lonely here.

ooooooooh well.


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you better watch where you spit [14 Mar 2004|03:10pm]
[ mood | productive ]

dang i have been grounded for like 7 years...
ok anyway...
these things are really lame...
and theyre really not meant for boys...
Friday, i was grounded and i went to sleep at like 6:15...
then on saturday i woke up at like 8 and i had baseball practice.
that sucked because i suck and i felt really stupid out there. haha.
well yea. thats all cause i was grounded again.
today is sunday. and i went to church...


leave comments please!

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Yo...my rhymes make you sick like enfluenza. so impacting that they make you change genders. :) [09 Mar 2004|03:40pm]
[ mood | disappointed ]

well thats it for that. everything is a lie. why would i believe for one second that she was telling the truth. haha.
wow. so once again i have been lied to. oh well, im giving up on it... on you. the false sense that someone loved me was oh so fictional. no one knows who im talking about. and if the person who im talking about reads this probably wont even know its about them. i feel like a game and everyone is here to play me. thats how it always turns out.

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im a liar, its what i do [07 Mar 2004|09:30pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

well finally i went somewhere...
Hampton... good ol' Hampton
my mom was taking a test in williamsburg so she dropped me off on her way. i had to get up at 5:30. gross. i slept on the way though so it wasnt so bad. what a day it was. at about 7:00 we took Chad to school. (aha Hampton had saturday school.)
then we slept and waited for Chad. then we went to the tennis courts and played tennis for like 30 minutes. then we played dodgeball. and then a lot of ppl came. and we did the same thing like all night and it was very fun. yep.

lots of drama. wow. haha.

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hello my name is distance and i really dont care if i never wake up again [05 Mar 2004|02:43pm]
[ mood | moody ]

i finally got high speed suckas. i have had the stupid modem for like 6 months but im just now hooking it up.


leave a comment you eye-offending dogfish!

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YAY! VERSUS ROME LYRICS! [04 Mar 2004|03:49pm]
Versus Rome lyrics suckas!

(untitled for now)

Could i return?...

to that place i once called home...

inside of your lungs...

where i was every fair breath...

that you took...

can i take one more with you?...

on the ends of our arms, sit trials...

of orphans and angels...

oh, only if they knew...

that beneath our feet...

the ground conspired...

oh, only if they knew...

that with every dance, there would come another...

born out of asphalt...

and cadenced with choir...

read me another... and sing me to sleep...
sharpen your switchblade

hello my name is distance and i really dont care if i never wake up again [04 Mar 2004|03:21pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

ok today is Thursday...
wow this was a fast week.
well tuesday i dont remember.
wednesday i had band practice and that was very fun. i looove making music. more than... BOOBIES!
kinda... in a way.
yes and OH!
I GOT ME BELT BACK! finally! it was like being reunited with a looong lost buddy.
or you know when youre a kid and you pull an old toy out from the bottom of your toy box yes...
that black beauty. with its beautiful black studs...

well im a total loser and there isnt much more to my life.
and wow do people really know how to make me feel like shite...

COMMENT IF YOU LOVE ME! (or if you just want to)

ps. im egotistical, you greasy rug-headed rabbitsucker. and im single.

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kiss my fist. taste the floor. [02 Mar 2004|04:55pm]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

some really weird stuff has been happening to me lately.
ok first off... i had a dream that still leaves me with question. i was at the mall and i was in this really big fight, then afterwards i went to a movie and all my friends were there (i mean everyone). for some odd reason the seats were on top of really high cliffs. somehow i ended up falling off of them. as i was falling i made a decision to just go head first instead of trying to land on my feet. so it was a 50% suicide. after dying i remember feeling as if i was falling up and then like boom. im in a circle with 3 men in the clouds. one of them was God. i met God in my dream. i think the reason the reason there were 3 men is because of the father, the son and the holy spirit. anyways... so im in the circle and having a conversation. the conversation was blurry. but after talking with them i entered into heaven. angels greeted me there. it was kinda like going to a new shool and being the new kid. all of the angels were about my age. they were all really nice. eventually they went about their business. and i had a "tour-guide angel." first there was this really big pool and it was like this huge waterpark. then she was like theres you quarters and pointed off in the distance. when i looked i saw a huge black mansion (it resembled the harry potter mansion very much). after that God, came to me and said stuff (for some reason God's conversations are blurry.) i left heaven and went back to Earth. i was going to school and my friends homes and everything... at first i thought they were ignoring me and not talking. then suddenly i realized that i was dead and they just couldnt hear me. i went to my own house. my mother was there and she was the only person that could hear me. i had one last moment with her... i clinched her in my arms and told her i was fine, dont worry. im in heaven now. then the dream was over... this is a true dream. and it really scared me.

second... i was in my room a couple of nights ago and i had that feeling that someone was watching me. you know when youre alone in the dark. yea... so i kept looking around my room and no one was there. i heard someone call my name so i turned over to see and no one was there. i went to look one more time so i squinted at first and i saw a lady in my room... she looked a lot like Marylin Monroe. and so i sat up really fast and opened my eyes all the way. nothing was there.

6stabs through backs| sharpen your switchblade

these knuckles break before they bleed [01 Mar 2004|08:43pm]
[ mood | sore ]

well today is a monday. it kinda felt like a thursday. iunno why. but anyways... my happenings of the day. i went to school and nothing really exciting happened, i was just ready to get outta there and go to band practice. the time finally came for me to and so i go to tell my mom that im gonna go to band practice and then shes like "no, why dont you stick around the house today"...ok not cool. and pointless. so i played with my little brother Aryan all day. i was his guinea pig for all these games he made up. where every five seconds hes like and then you do this Ethan. and then lets pretend this happened. the game went from Power Rangers to Terminator to GI JOE in a matter of five minutes. then i got online. then i talked to sonja. now i have a migraine and i think my heads going to explode.

Love Always,

p.s. leave a comment or two.

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smiles become fiction [29 Feb 2004|07:55pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

wow... i feel so useless in this world. everyday im constantly being ridiculed by my parents. "you are so selfish, stop feeling sorry for yourself, blah blah blah. its all leads up to one thing: im a horrible child. they dont think anything affects me but it really does. then they ridicule me about how i outcast myself from the family and that i always look so sad. what else am i supposed to do?... im not trying to be all "emo" but man...

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sook it [29 Feb 2004|06:02pm]
[ mood | content ]

So i have this LiveJournal now. Everyone is getting one. Quite the trendy thing to do...
i thought i was going to Hampton. But AALLL of the rides cancelled so no go. I sat at home. and slept.
i thought i was going to Hampton. But AALLL of the rides cancelled so no go. I sat at home. and slept. AGAIN!

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